Giants in your way?

I don’t winter well… I refuse. I absolutely loathe winter and all that comes with it. The snow, the cold, the dead trees and drab scenery. So I just don’t. I don’t even own a coat, and yes, my flip flops stay out all year.

When the seasons start to change in the fall and the excitement of the holidays come knocking at my door I get excited for cooler weather, sweaters, boots, hot cocoa, baking and spending time with family reflecting on our many blessings and focusing on the birth of Jesus, then setting goals for the new year. But… As quickly as it comes and goes, is as quickly as I lose my excitement for the changing weather. When Christmas is over, I am done and I want the sunshine and beauty of summer back.

We set goals in the beginning of the new year hoping to create a better version of ourselves, thinking that if we could just change this or that about ourselves we would be happy or content. We fill up our lives with to do lists and to don’t lists. We overbook and over-schedule our lives so much that we leave no room for God to do what He wants to do in our lives. We fabricate a plan and a vision of what think we want our lives to look like, and then we either leave God out of it, or we present it to Him and tell Him that this is what we want, this is what we need. If He would only make your lives exactly like the picture we have drafted for Him, then we would be able serve Him well. We would be happy and content, and full of joy and peace. We would want for nothing more and we would be far better equipped to point others to Him. But, this is so basic…

The word of God says that we are created for more, we are created with a God given purpose, we are created for signs and wonders from the Lord almighty. But with our human brain we try to compartmentalize God, we put up walls inside our minds and try to put limits on a limitless God.

10 years ago, God spoke very plainly to me as I was standing in the bathroom of my parents house getting ready. I had just been through a divorce, and was staying with my parents who were so gracious to welcome me in. God told me in that moment that I was going to work in women’s ministry in a very big way and even gave me a visual to go along with it. At the time I scoffed at God and told him I was pretty sure He had the wrong girl. Didn’t He remember who I was? I was the girl that up until this point had never been successful at anything, in fact I’m pretty sure I had messed up more than I had ever accomplished and there was absolutely no way a wretch like me could ever become what the picture He put in my mind was. I walked away laughing, but also feeling sick to my stomach. Because more than anything did I wish that what I saw could be my life, but I had already failed at 30+ years of life so far and at this point I’m not getting any younger, so my life is going to be what it is, and I just need to accept that I could never be used in a might way by almighty God.

You see, I exchanged the truth of God for a lie. I tried to take my life out of the hands of God, I tried to tell the King of the World that He couldn’t use my life for His glory. The very God who created me from the dust, the one who has numbered my days, the one who knows every hair on my head; I tried to make small the infinite God, the one who holds it all, the one who has set in motion every moment of my life, the one who created me for a purpose that is so much bigger than I can even comprehend.

I had made what I perceived my life to be a giant standing between me and the life God had planned for me. But God is relentless in His pursuit of us, and as we surrender our will and what we think we need or want for His, the giant starts to fall and what seemed impossible is now possible.

What limits are you setting on God in your life? Have you designed a box for God and put His abilities in it thinking that where you have been or where you come from automatically disqualifies you from the life you were purposed to live? What giants are standing in your way?

Your purpose and your dreams do not have to be limited to what you think you can achieve based on what you see or where you fit in with the world. God owns it all! Tear down the walls you have built for Him, take Him out of the box, chase after what He has for you and watch your giants fall!

*Now to him who is able to do immesaurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations for ever and ever! Amen. -Ephesians 3:20

As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. -Ephesians 4:1





One Simple word…

I am a little behind on the new years resolution thing… Not that I didn’t come up with some things I would like to accomplish this year, just that I haven’t had the time to plan them out. With a new years resolution, most people “resolve” to become a better version of themselves, i.e. health, weight loss, being more organized, getting out of debt etc… Out with the old, in with the new right?

However, if you are anything like me, those resolutions quickly fade into the chaos of everyday life, and I eventually end up criticizing myself for my self imposed “failure” once again.

Which brings me to the point of this post. In order for us to be successful at anything we want to do, we must be committed and intentional. That’s why this year I have chosen one word that will keep me on track to achieving the things I really want to achieve.

Are you ready for it?… DELIBERATE

I need to be deliberate in all things.

  1. God: I need to be deliberate in my desperate pursuit of God and His word.
  2. Health: I need to be deliberate in the care of my body, I can’t lose weight or be healthy if I am not being deliberate about the things I am putting in it or being active.
  3. Unplugging: I need to be deliberate about putting my phone away and being present in my home. Picking up our phones and scrolling on social media has become a shocking habit that I am definitely guilty of.
  4. Time: What and who am I spending my time on? What gets the most of my attention? I feel like this one goes somewhat hand and hand with point number 3… I need to spend less time reading about other peoples lives and focus on my own. Also, I have a very hard time just letting the dishes or laundry go to spend time relaxing or laughing with my family. I need to be deliberate about just letting things go that will still be there later.

All of this comes full circle back to God. He needs to be first and foremost, he is the giver of all things and the sustainer of the strength and endurance I need to effectively live my life the way he designed it.